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My experience of Meditation in 2011
Actually, I have nothing special to talk about meditation retreat because I got nothing benefit. I don’t know why I didn’t well. Really, I thought I did sometime best by myself but I couldn’t cross over problem that my waist was very hurt. Accidently, I founded hurts when I did exercise within I toke bathe before meditation retreat one month ago. But I did meditate with all my schoolmates as a duty.
Now I wanna explain my experience during the ten days meditation treat what I got special form. How shall I say? But if I talk the truth I found something after several days of meditation that I feeling good my mind because of meditation master. He is really good teacher he taught us how to concentrate, and focus on mind. His speech was clear when his teaching even though he couldn’t speaks nicely pronunciation. I thought by myself if wanna did I could do well but I didn’t why I don’t know exactly . May be that is my weakness. Later, I saw clearly some meditators they did very well because they explained their experience at last day of meditation. Someone told us how he founded and saw in his mind. According to his speech I founded nicely imagination but he realized what meditation master taught whatever you found it is not reality that is only imagination. That might be he could control his mind. For me, wow! It is great to him thought myself. But how stupid I am that I couldn’t do anything why I shouldn’t be. I never thought before too. However I realize that I need necessarily to try one time in the rest of my life.
During ten days meditation time I also followed like other meditators. Normally, we follow as the rule of regulation ways. First day, I observed my body, mind but I couldn’t well so I went out and back insight again and again I did like that because couldn’t follow well. I notice some meditators couldn’t do well like me. After two, three days some student meditators did well a little I noticed. To me how could be I thought but one things I believe too at the same time that if I wanna do I can. Actually, I couldn’t practical present. Several days later, I couldn’t do well at some section during sitting meditation time. Really! That was having great pleasure I feel into my mind. occasionally I did well about ten and fifteen minutes only after several days later however I got many kind of pain in my body, feet, hips, waist my mind become complex due to the pain as well.
My accidental waist was so hurt. I couldn’t sit long. Really! I had no idea how to do at that time because meditation is also my responsibility. Eventually, I went to temporary cline in form of meditation hall. A nurse said I explained about problem how I did badly in my waist. Nurse given me some medicines I knew what kind of medicines she given me so I couldn’t dare take that medicines and then next I went again to her two days later. She had given me another diffident medicine. Wow! I couldn’t take more in this time after next days I went to her too. She had given me other diffident medicines at the same way before. Finally, I didn’t take any of her medicine. So I practiced outside by walking that is better feeling for me.
Before the last day of meditation I followed by walking meditation like others. The method of walking meditation so nice, we can remember easily but to follow probably it is difficult how will arise any chance easily without try best to something indeed I realized finally.
This year meditation times was very happy days anyhow I got suffering with many things because we all faculties students practiced in the meditation hall together and sometime we got fun too. At the ground floor of meditation hall many monk came down to drank water, some juices and went toilet, made group for discussion. Some monks want outside for smoking I saw many diffident things. All things made funny most of time for me. Some teacher came down for up floor and given order to get inside and they browbeaten to students do not stay along outside else meditation room. Some teacher made fun for students. This year also we international students got special chance for meditation days because we got a room for international only under the ground of floor of meditation hall. We could listen Dhamma talk everyday in English in the morning and evening. Even all student meditators counldn’t get Samadhi (concentration), we got general knowledge regarding with meditation and worldly, unworldly sharing experience from teachers too. So this year meditation days made many experience and fun for me and hope you too others like me.
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